Not Yet There...

So me people might think since I’m 17 that I have to have a job, be responsible and anything else a 17 year old should be. But some 17 yr olds are not there yet for example_ me. If the 4 seasons was how I could explain my maturity, I’m in that stage were I’m at the end of spring moving on into the summer. I am childish, playing around a lot. Selfish, wanting everything and learning how to be more responsible, doing things before my mom tells me to do it.

The other day when I was playing with my brothers and my mom told us to stop because we were to big to be playing like kids. That’s when I realized that I was childish. Playing kid games to play fighting with my brothers, learning that I don’t know when to stop. I have to have everything like a 3 yr old.

Knowing myself, I know that I can be very selfish at times. I wan everything to myself, such as my friends, family and just my stuff in general. Some people may say that I’m inconsiderate but me being me I don’t care what people say. My best friend has a new boyfriend and I really don’t want to share her with him. I don’t think she would have time to hang out with me. But , I’m learning to compromise with getting ready for the summer.

Responsibly is a big world to use, that’s why I’m using it. It takes a lot to be responsible. That’s why I can say I’m responsible, I cook, and clean, baby sit and I’m trying to fine a job. The funniest thing happened to me a couple of weeks ago, I was supposed to go to the movies but my brother needed me to watch my nieces so I did. I cooked and cleaned up their mess. It wasn’t my best night but it was worth the money. Me being responsible relates to Lizabeth in the story, after she looked in Miss. Lottie face after damaging her marigolds. Responsibly smacked her right in the face, she realized she couldn’t act like a playful child and playing childish games like I had to learn.

Knowing where I stand being at the end of spring, beginning of summer I can say that I’m learning more and more about myself ever day. Knowing that I like to play around like a child, keep everything to myself and I’m growing on responsibly. But who said it was all work and no play?